Say What You Want to Say

by Nicolas Jackson (The Catz)

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

      $6.50 USD

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Nicolas Jackson's debut album "Say What You Want to Say" features a unique collection of original acapella pop dealing with everything from one sided love to grief and isolation.
    ships out within 5 days

      $9 USD

     

  • Buy Disc

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.
13.

about

Nicolas Jackson's debut album "Say What You Want to Say" features 13 Original acapella pop compositions dealing with a range of topics from one sided love to grief, isolation and a few less depressing topics. You know, for variety.

credits

released June 13, 2009

All tracks Written, Song, and Recorded by Nicolas Jackson

tags

license

about

Nicolas Jackson (The Catz) Chico, California

I am a one man band. I own a Rockband Microphone. I own a copy of MS Word. I own a copy of Sound Forge 9. I own a copy of Sam Broadcaster. I downloaded Audacity onto a computer that I also own. I have an internet connection and a set of headphones that I stole from my adopted brother. Put that and a few other bits together and you have something akin to music.

I am also a record label.
... more

contact / help

Contact Nicolas Jackson (The Catz)

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: Say What You Wanna Say
Don’t be afraid to say what you want to say,
Don’t be afraid to say what you want,
before the chance slips away.

I was twelve years old,
When a chance came my way
Although I didn’t know,
what I wanted to say
I’m older now,
And I know what to say
Although the chance went away
Although the chance,
has now slipped away.

Don’t be afraid to say what you want to say,
Don’t be afraid to say what you want,
before the chance slips away.

Nineteen years now,
And a chances comes my way
Although I don’t know,
What I want to say
I’m older now
And I know what to say
Although I still watch, as the chances go away
Although I still watch, as the chances slip away
better get it straight, before the chance slips away

Away, Away
Away, Away
Away, Away
Away, Away
Away, Away
Away, Away
Away……..

No don’t be afraid to say what you want to say,
No don’t be afraid to say what you want,
Before the chance slips away.

No don’t be afraid to say what you want to say,
No don’t be afraid to say what you want,
Just say what you want
Before the chance slips away.
Away Away
Away Away
Away Away
Away…….

Away Away
Away Away
Away Away
Away…….

Ah Ah Ah Ah-way
Track Name: (I Don’t Wanna) Say Goodbye to You
I don’t want to say goodbye to you
but what else can I do?

We live in different worlds you see
but why must this be?

Long ago I was there with you
but, no one knew
no, no one knew

I don’t want to say goodbye to you
but what else can I do?

If we had met before you see
this problem might not be

For
long ago I was there with you
but, no one knew
no, no one knew

I don’t want to say goodbye to you
but what else can I do?

This problem may always be
you see
for you live so far from me.

Oh but,
long ago I was there with you
still no knew no
still no one knew.

No I don’t want to say goodbye to you,
for I’m still in love with you.

Yet there’s nothing we can do.
No there’s nothing we can do.
There’s just nothing we can do.

So
long ago I was there with you,
but no one knew...
so now I must say goodbye to you.
Track Name: You Were My Muse
When darknesses comes as it always does there nothing you can do.
Run, hide deny there is nothing you can do

I can't make it in the awful world all alone
though I know there's times when
you must go on without a friend
The long and lonely road of life
will bring my plight to an end.

It was a bad July
after a bad May
I loved you in high school
stupid as it was
the feelings wouldn't go away.

Spider Man and The Day After Tommow Came out that year,
such a bloody thrill
How could I not muse you to make my own trill?

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day

I told you of Becow
Nate, Lauretta and John
they were a dream in me that seems now so far gone
Amber, Don and Rob were the rest
their story one that inspired me
I was so damn depressed

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day

I didn't know I would tell you of John and Amber's sex
Maybe that's what drove you away
I was so damn perplexed.
You have to know I cared for you in the only way I could
Even though my care for you was no should

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day

Another bad May
Another bad year
I was alone wanting to love
just so full of fear

I had a picture, song and CD for you
just to show I cared.
We were gonna meet at Celtions
the best Pizza in the place
But I got a call from you
the meeting was not to take place.

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day

I had lunch with my sister that day
We went to Celistions anyway
Before I met her
I saw you briefly outside the choir room
If not for the ring of the god damn phone
we have had more to say
What a way to say goodbye
such an important day

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day

Sometimes I still pray to hear from
A proper goodbye would nice
After all
one doesn't make a friend like that
in New York City twice

You were my Muse my inspiration
I made you so out of desperation
But that desperation dove you away
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
the half finished manuscript sits to this day
It May always be that Way
(repeat 4 times)
Yes it may always be that way
Track Name: Baby Come Out
Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out

Baby come out
A big brother needs a little sister
Baby come out
A friend to share the blister
Baby come out
How much I would’ve missed her
A brother needs his sister

Baby
Baby
Baby came out
Baby came out

Baby came out
June 13th 1989
Baby came out
A day I thought was less than fine
Baby came out
But how much I would’ve missed her
A brother needs his sister

Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out

Baby come out
And some day
Twenty years down the line
Baby come out
Yes some day
This baby will look so fine
Baby come out
I can’t believe she’s mine
But how much would’ve missed her
A brother needs his sister.

Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out

Baby Come out
Maybe more to this story soon
Baby Come Out
A marriage one afternoon
Baby Come Out
And soon…

Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out

Baby Come Out
A bunch of babies all your own
Baby Come Out
A older brother by the telephone
Baby Come Out
Waiting for another round
Thinking how much he would’ve missed her
A brother needs his sister.

Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out

Baby Come Out
I’ll live with an ear by your side
Baby Come Out
No matter how you get your pride
Baby Come Out
This promise is my pride
For I can’t say
how much he would’ve missed her
A brother needs his sister.

Baby
Baby
Baby come out
Baby come out
Track Name: We Only hear What we Want To Hear, We Only See What we Want To See
I was lost, I was alone, all I really wanted to do was go home,
then you came, and saw me, Although to this day I can’t say what you see in me
you were a friend, I was in need, Although I didn’t really want to share that need

We only hear what we want to hear, and we only see what we want to see
But the question that I can’t answer is what did you see in me?
What did you see in me?

Now its been eight long years, yet you still must see something in me
Cause you’re here still with me, Although I can’t really say what you see in me
You’re a friend I’m still in need Although now I’m glad to share that need

We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see
But the question that I can’t answer is what do you see in me?
What do you see in me?

I was dumb, I made a mistake, all I really wanted to do was to make you laugh
Then you didn’t but I didn’t see Although now I know that I should have seen what you see in me
You are my friend, you are in need Although I now really want to share that need

We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see
But the question that I can’t answer is can you forgive me?
Can you forgive me?

I only saw what I wanted to see, all I really wanted to see was you enjoying me
I didn’t hear what you said to me Although now it’s quite clear to me
Although now its quite clear to me, now its quite clear to me.
Now it’s quite clear to me

We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see
We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see
We only hear what we want to hear, we only see what we want to see
But the question that I can’t answer is can you hear me?
But the question that I can’t answer is can you see me?
Track Name: Mr Rainbow-No Love
As I was walking down the street
A very good friend I happened to meet
It was the Rainbow, Rainbow, Rainbow

He said he was very, very sad
And I asked him why, why, why
And this is what he said to me.

I am so damn sad
I am so damn mad
The world is so damn bad

No one loves any more
It’s not what the world is for

The world is for me alone
And since you’re not me you see

I must say fuck you
It’s all the world can do.

(Repeat both songs once)
Track Name: Life is Les Miserables
Stories are a universal truth
ones we cannot live without
Veljean
Jarvet
Fantine
Eponine
Marius
Cosette

I am no Jean Veljean
a convict on the run
A man who finds god
saves people to save himself
something I am not

I am no Jarvet
a hard man of the law
A man who finds himself destroyed
by the law
and another mans good deeds

No not me
Not not me indeed

I maybe a Fantine
a woman haunted by the dreams she dreamed
A woman who gives up on herself
for the sake of her child’s needs
That I maybe

Who else may I be
Who else may I be

I maybe an Eponine
a humble woman caught in a love triangle
A woman who loses her life in the arms of the man she covets
All for the love of him and the love of his future spouse

Would that really be such a bad way to go out?
Would that really be such a bad way to go out?

I am no Marius
A man of revolutionary strength
A man who loses his friends to his battle
only saved by a saint
and the love of Cosette

No that man I am not
No that man I am not

I Maybe a Cosette
A poor abandoned girl saved by a saint
A girl whose love of Marius
saved him
And made there life quite quaint

I can’t who I am for sure
I really have my doubts
but life is Les Miserables
a story of universal truths
ones we cannot live without
Track Name: When Things Go Bad
The world is a horrible place
A fact we have to face
But what do you do when things go bad
and theres just no where to turn?

What do you do when you need the love
But only have the lonely burn?
I drive
I drive long hard far away
hoping I get somewhere someday
hoping I get somewhere someday

Can’t say what I expect to find
On the open road
A Song to sing?
A Place to be?

There must be something

Its what I do when I need the love
But only have the lonely burn
I drive
I drive long hard far away
hoping I get somewhere someday
hoping I get somewhere someday

Flagstaff
Seattle
San Francisco
Places have been

Phoenix
Flagstaff
San Diego,
San Francisco
and Seattle
Places I go still.

There must be something out there
There must be some kind of thrill
For the search for love and satisfaction burns
rubber
fuel
and my heart too.

There will be something out there
There will be a thrill
For Its what I do when I need the love
But only have the lonely burn
I drive
I drive long hard far away
knowing I’ll get there someday
knowing I’ll get there someday
Track Name: Am I There Today?
A long time I made a joke
silly as it maybe
thought I perceived Pac-Man
on the film screen

The film was old
maybe before Pac-Man days
Nope the old man in the film says its not Pac-Man
There was a laughing craze

Am I There Today?
The day I kiss your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
Have I driven long hard and far away to get somewhere today?

It would have been nothing
if not for B and J and my 21st b-day
An e-mail sent
a response given
and off the chase took

The chase was fun while it lasted
of that I am sure
But I didn’t expect to find what I found
when you opened your door

Am I There Today
The day I kiss your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste?
Have I driven long hard and far away to get somewhere today?

A lost and lonely girl
you were so alone
wanted to help
but couldn’t be that man that day

So I trusted another man
A mature mistake I am sure
hoping he would know the responsibly of walking in your door

Am I There Today?
The day I kiss your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
Have I driven long hard and far away to get somewhere today?

I ran away
the man was a fool
not knowing when to quit
He walked into your door
only to give you lies and bullshit

I can’t promise any better
I am a fallible man
A human like all the rest
part of God’s big plan

Am I There Today?
The day I kiss your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
Have I driven long hard and far away to get somewhere today?

The drive was long
the kiss was sweet
such a sweet and gentle taste
I’ll never forget is what I said when I last saw your face.

The drive back was long and hard
I just wanted to cry.
My desire to hold you in my arms
made our friendship die

Am I There Today
No not that day I kissed your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
But I had driven long hard and far away
for something different that day

A dream to dream is what you gave me
on that Mayday
How nice a dream to have hold
and think of far away

Maybe that dream will be with you
Only god is to say
Whatever happens now its all ok
I’ll never forget that day

Am I There Today?
The day I kiss your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
Have I driven long hard and far away to get somewhere today?

Am I There Today
No not that day I kissed your lips
such a sweet and gentle taste
But I had driven long hard and far away
for something different that day

The question is Am I There Today?
Am I There Today?

I don’t know
only god or destiny knows the way
Am I There Today?
Track Name: You Are My Muse
I’ve told you of the darkness and its unavoidability
I’ve told you that sometimes there is nothing you can do
yes you know there are sometimes when theres nothing you can do.

I am afraid to tell you all
but yet you always listen
even when there are those times when you cannot do
even when there are those times when you cannot do

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

I was so damned nervous when I met you
You a master of psychology and creativity
How could a humble lowly guy such as me
ever impress a woman like you?
This is something I’ve done
that I’ll never understand true

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

I will never understand your mind
its somewhat irritating
To know that I muse you
for an unexplainable reason
What ever the reason
the facts are plainly clear
and I hope to God you never disappear

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

You know the weight upon your shoulders
I hope its not too much
For it would give me pain
should my creative desires eat your personality for lunch
You know I love you that is plainly clear
All I ask is that you be a dear
be the person I love
never give in to fear

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

As I write these words tonight
my eyes start to tear
Sometimes I wish I could make these strange
emotions simply disappear.
If you ever need me to go
please tell me so
though it will cause me great pain
I’d rather live my life in vain
then destroy and cause you pain

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

I will not let myself give in
I will not be a salve to my emotions
I know you are a person true
I know this is a burden on you
But if things are really right
it shouldn’t pull you down
it should only help you in your plight

You are my muse
You are are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

You are creative maybe more creative than me
You and I would like nothing more than to see your juices flow
But this is not an easy thing to do
And it will take a lot to see it true
Please learn to muse me as I muse you
maybe together our creativity can grow
and show the world a thing or two

You are my muse
You are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination

Am I your muse?
Am I your inspiration?
Am I so out of love and fascination?

You are my muse
You are my inspiration
You became so
out of love and fascination
There is no desperation to drive you away
If you join me maybe we can finish the manuscript today
If you join me maybe we can finish the manuscript today
Track Name: Do I Love You Enough?
I’ve seen the world
that I know
Heaven, hell and everything between.

Of all the things I’ve seen and done
I really fear only one...

Love...

Love is my greatest fear
Let me explain so you can hear
that love
is the greatest weakness of humanity
that love
is the greatest blessing of humanity

Without it where would we be?

Do I Love You Enough
A question to ask
Do I Love Your Enough
A question I must ask
Do I Love You Enough?
To hold your hand
Do I Love You Enough?
To kiss your lips
Do I Love You Enough
to see the bliss
Do I Love you Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

Why must I fear your beauty?
Why must I fear the lust
Why must I fear
the mental attraction
that pulls so much?

There is nothing wrong with love
There is nothing wrong with Eros
There is nothing wrong with Amore
There would be noting better than Agape

Do I Love You Enough?
A question to ask
Do I Love Your Enough?
A question I must ask
Do I Love You Enough?
To understand
Do I Love You Enough?
To shelve my pride
Do I Love You Enough
to help you unhide
Do I Love you Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

We are both afraid of this
A fact we well know
There is such a large risk
in letting
our fellings show

I don’t want to let you down
give you lies or bullshit
cuase you know that if I did
I’d throw a fit

Do I Love You Enough?
A question to ask
Do I Love Your Enough?
A question I must ask
Do I Love You Enough?
To be your man
Do I Love You Enough?
To give you my hand
Do I Love You Enough
to understand
Do I Love you Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

The search for one’s true love
is a long and dangerous one
in our dark hour
it is
anything but fun

I don’t want to fear the pain
I don’t want to fear the risk
I never want to lose friend
to something like this

Do I Love You Enough?
A question to ask
Do I Love Your Enough?
A question I must ask
Do I Love You Enough?
To be your friend
Do I Love You Enough?
To stay the day
Do I Love You Enough
to never go away
Do I Love you Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

If we were to take this risk
and it were to go wrong
could we still appreciate
the meaning of
this song?

An everlasting love
would be the best end
But failing this we go this way
we must still be friends

Do I Love You Enough?
A question to ask
Do I Love You Enough?
A question I must ask
Do I Love You Enough
to walk away
Do I Love You Enough
on a bad day
Do I Love You Enough
forgive forget never quit
Do I Love You Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

I am scared to death
something you hear
We should overcome
this awful fear
its plain to see I why were here

Hold my hand
take a breath
let’s have a little faith
God please tell me I’ve been searching for your face

Do I Love You Enough?
The answer I know
Do I Love You Enough?
The answer is yes
Do I Love You Enough?
To take a stand?
Do I Love You Enough?
To grab your hand
Do I Love You Enough?
As we jump this cliff
Do I Love You Enough
To not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

May this thing of our be right
May we have the strength
to weather all the storms tonight
and have it last
till the morning light

We only know what feel
We hope we feel it right
We hope that God bess us
on our noble plight

Do I Love Enough
I think I do
Do I Love Enough
I sure care for you
Do I Love Enough
kiss my lips
Do I Love You Enough
you know I do
Do I Love Enough
how I love you
Do I Love Enough
to not miss
a wonderful chance like this?

Do I Love Enough
I don’t want to want to kiss you
Do I Love Enough
How can these feelings be strong and true?
Do I Love Enough
I can’t take it anymore
Do I Love You Enough
Take one step Nicolas walk into her open door
Do I Love Enough
I know the answer is yes
Do I Love Enough
please don’t let us miss
a wonderful chance like this
Track Name: You Don't Love Me
I hold your hand
you can't hold mine
I kiss your lips
I kiss your cheek
you can't kiss mine

I thought I left this problem behind
I drove long hard and far away to get away
I drove long hard and far away to get back
Thought things we're better
I felt I was where I belonged

I was so goddamn wrong

You are a friend
That’s all you’ll ever be
All I ask is you leave me be
A man with a broken hart
A man town apart
I ask you to come around
You don’t hear the sound
So I wait and I masturbate

So many times I fell to your sweet seductive song
So many times I tried to sign along
But the verse would always end in pain
And a credit card bill I tried to pay
In vain

You are a friend
That’s all you’ll ever be
All I ask is you leave me be
A man with a broken hart
A man town apart
I ask you to come around
You don’t hear the sound
So I wait and I masturbate

It came to a peak one crisp fall day
A wild loop of one sided love
That wouldn’t go away.
So had to go
I had to go away

You are a friend
That’s all you’ll ever be
All I ask is you leave me be
A man with a broken hart
A man town apart
I ask you to come around
You don’t hear the sound
So I wait and I masturbate

I sit and I wonder sometimes
What went so goddamn wrong?
Why do I always fall to your sweet seductive song?
I went fifteen-hundred-forty-two miles away
I still fall to this day

You are a friend
That’s all you’ll ever be
All I ask is you leave me be
A man with a broken hart
A man town apart
I ask you to come around
You don’t hear the sound
So I wait and I masturbate

I sit here alone tonight chatting with you
Saying there is no harm a little chat won’t do
I have anger, love bitterness too
But most of all I don’t and won’t ever have you

You are a friend
That’s all you’ll ever be
All I ask is you leave me be
A man with a broken hart
A man town apart
I ask you to come around
You don’t hear the sound
So I wait and I masturbate

Why won’t these feelings let me be?
Why won’t you let me be?
Why don’t you get the fuck away from me?
(Repeat)
Track Name: Don’t Be Afraid to Say What you Want to Say; But No One Listens Anyway
No Don’t be afraid to say what you want to say
Don’t be Afraid to say what you want
(change to minor key)
But know that no one listens
any
way...

(soft piano instrumental)

The years have gone by since my great aunt died
I learned my lesson well
No point in having things to say
if you let ‘em rote in hell.

I am not afraid any more
no that for fucking sure
I can bottle it up
I can speak my message pure.

Still all this time goes by
and there’s just no fucking cure
Yes folks the time ticks by and there
there’s just no fucking cure.

Why must we live this hell?
A question I know too well.
Day in day out they ignore my advice
and don’t think twice

I care too much to take this shit for years and years to come
Being ignored by friends and family is just no fucking fun.
Yes being ignored by friends and family is just no fucking fun.

You can say what you want to say
till your blue in the face.
But when the assholes don’t listen
its nothing but a fucking disgrace.

So say what you want to say,
who am I to care?
But when they don’t listen
don’t give me that blank stare.
Oh say what you want to say no one listens anyway
Oh say what you want to say no one listens anyway.

Told my CS Grandma
seek medical help
she didn’t listen
now she’s fucking dead

Told my Dad to fuck my Mom
didn’t listen either
now their relation
ships in shit
they adopted another kid

Told a girl to let him go
she holds on anyway

I guess it just don’t matter what you fucking say

So say what you want to say,
who am I to care?
But when they don’t listen
don’t give me that blank stare.
Oh say what you want to say no one listens anyway
Oh say what you want to say no one listens anyway.